To Anyone Who Thinks I'm Crazy Part X

System Of A Down Remixed and Romanticized

What do i feel?
What do I do?
What do I say?
In the end it all goes away!
Some people call it insane!
I sit in my empty room.
No lights.
No music.
Fuck you!
I play Russian Roulette everyday,
Yeah, with a bullet called life.
Shit!
Now I'm locked away forever.
I'm trying to assemble a penitentiary.
I'm trying to kill the people.
I'm trying to break out of prison.
I'm trying to destroy your mind.
I'm trying to understand your words.
Drugs are my vice.
My force is the source of all creation.
WAR!
Fuck the system.
I need to fuck the system.
We all need to fuck the system.
Put on a little makeup.
I don't think you trust in my self-righteous suicide.
I cry and angels deserve to die.
Fuck you.
I found you...crawling away from me.
I commend my spirit.
Why have you forsaken me?
Please trust in my self-righteous suicide.
Swimming through the void,
we lose ourselves.
We always want to go
but we never want to stay.
We always want to win
but we never want to lose.
Free my life.
Life is a waterfall,
we all drink from the water then we turn around and build up our walls.
So up high...
When you free your life,
you burn your lies.
We don't need to multiply.
Too many lives on one rock.
Welcome to America and all our brutality.
Service with a smile.
I like to push the merry-go-round.
The little boy smiled
and said, "Don't make me kill you, again."
Distorted figures in my head.
The schizo breaks free,
takes over my mind.
screaming for help,
I cry.
My insides have turned to ash.
This is not my life.
This not my home.
This is not me.
I hate this.
I'm burning alive.
Flames lick their way up my spine.
My feet turn to ash.
My tears are cinders.
Screaming inside and out,
I need water.
But instead I get ice.
Too cold.
Too hot.
Too much.
My insides are blocks of ice.
My toes turn black.
I try to move.
My feet fall off.
Everything turns to slush.
I go down the drain that's under my metatarsals.
Heaven's ruler decends upon me,
laughs in my face.
I'm denied entrance.
The Underworld's master takes me with a smile.
"Welcome to fucking hell!
Glad to finally meet you!
You'll be taken to the 'eternal pain' section!"
Snakes bite into my neck,
their poison makes me shriek.
Squeezing my air supply dry,
I claw at the squirming binds.
A whip snaps against my back.
Knives take away my metacarpals.
Goodbye hands.
Goodbye feet.
Goodbye life.
Goodbye me.
The Devil meets me eye to eye.
"Thirsty?" Smirk.
"PLEASE STOP!"
I try to cry but there are no tears.
He laughs and cuts out my tongue.
"DRINK THAT!"
He slaps me.
Screaming at the pain,
But gratefully drink the blood.
Wires replace the binds.
Tearing into
my flesh
my limbs
my heart
my lungs
my stomach
my intestines
all on the floor of this flaming hell.
I'd do anything to be able to breathe.
My body is suddenly whole.
I try to run.
But running isn't possible in hell.
The Devil giggles like a school-girl
as he shoves bleach down my throat.
It burns.
Cursed fire sets aflame my body once again.
"FUCK YOU! MAKE IT ALL GO AWAY!"
Sheets of icy silk take away the pain.
It feels as if I'm floating in water.
Opening my eyes I see a bright light.
I go towards it,
even though you yell not to.
Relief as I reach the orb.
But then the pain is back
and the Devil had tricked me.
no more hope left.
No more.
Eternity is a long time for people in hell.

Love,
M. C. Grace
Age 14
Written: Saturday, June 13, 2009, 9:29:48 PM