To Anyone Who Thinks I'm Crazy Part VIII

I'm lost in the past of my present.
Hate has lost it's edge
in the war of Love.
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
Bells chime as the winds die.
No one is listening but me.
The trees and their whispers
captivate me to cry.

F.S.D.W.L.L.D.
I am FALLING,
SLEEPING,
DREAMING,
but never
WAKING.
If I
FALL,
make sure I'm
SLEEPING.
If I'm
DREAMING,
Make sure I'll soon be
WAKING,
So that I know I'm
LIVING
my life to all extremes.
If I
FALL,
Will I
SLEEP?
If I
DREAM,
please do not
WAKE
me.
For I am
FALLING,
SLEEPING,
DREAMING,
WAKING,
LIVING,
LOVING,
DYING
...like I should be.
And so the sun sets...
And rises once again,
and even though I'm gone...
Life still goes on.
You wish to bring me down?
You'll only make matters worse.
{Oh...
I remember now...
At the top of my lungs,
I scream.
In my arms...
She dies.
If this is what you want...
Then fire at will.
I try.
I wear my heart on my sleeve.
The angels of the night are crying for you, dear.
Promise that when I'm gone...
you'll kill all my enemies.
Mark the graves with black rosery.
You are so far from me...
and down we go...
we all go to hell.
Give me all the
poison,give me all the
pills,give me all the
cyanide, and all the
kills...} ~ MCR
I'd rather feel the pain of the world than see you dead and gone.
{Two shots to the back of the head,
mumble some words and
then feel some dread.} ~ MCR
Death is...
there is no word to describe.
When the rich rage war,
it's the poor who die.
Amen.
Stay out of the night,
way down,
you drown.
In death we are reborn as gods and goddesses.
And I'm coming back to take back the life you stole.
Hallelujah, lock and load.
I turn to you,"Would you kill me in my sleep?
Are you lost in your lies?
Because I'm aware of what you've done.
And I'll pay for your mistakes."
Another life,
Another soul,
Another wave of sorrow.
For what you did to me or for what I'll do to you...
One of us has to go.
You're running out of places to hide from me.
I'm just the way the doctor made me...
Broken.
You won't stop me,
I'll put him down.
Grab a gun and meet me by the door.
The clouds above move closer,
looking so dissatified.
My path has lost direction, somehow...
And so they find you on the bathroom floor.
And the ground below grew colder,
as they put you down inside.
Another knife in my hands,
and another stain that won't come out of the sheets.
Don't stop living if I fall...
and dance to the song of the dead on Valentine's Day.
Trust me...I'm better off this way.
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say...
"I'm sorry I ever loved you,Because I knew I would end up breaking you heart."
The only thing worse than one is none.
Just wait until it fades to black.
Just know that I will always remember you
And the lives of everyone you knew.

Love,
M.C. Grace
Age: 14
Written: Friday, June 12, 2009 1:51 PM

-Inspired by Linkin Park and My Chemical Romance <3 <3 <3